5 Months today!

Hey...I'm 5 Months!

The last 5 months have gone by so quickly.  I just can't believe that we are already into the holiday season.  Last year I was just hoping and praying that this year we would have our baby home and healthy.  Now, here we are...Colin is a happy, healthy, and perfect little boy!  My days off this week have been awesome!  He has been so happy.  He is definitely feeling better and even though he hates the amoxicillan, he takes it and responds well to it.  I am so happy to have him smiling and not crying all the time.

Buppppp.......

 

For fun today, I decided to plop him in a box I got from woot.  He seemed to really like just chillin in the box, so I let him sit there for a while.  If I could just make it a little softer, I think it would probably be the perfect spot for him. :)

Hey Gorilla, how's it going?

Mom, I'm in my box right now

My Little Talker

For about the last week or so Colin has started cooing all the time.  He says ooo and ah all the time.  It is so cute!  He smiles more and really responds to people.  He really does look like he is talking to people.  He is a ticklish little guy and bounces his legs up when I tickle his belly.  He doesn't laugh much yet, but every so often he will let one out.   I love it!

I love mornings now.  He sleeps through the night (goes to bed between 9 and 10) and wakes up around 6 or 7.  When I go to his crib, he looks up at me, pauses, and then smiles.  It is so sweet!  It is like he is thinking, "Hey, it's Mommy!"  I love it.  I feel so special when he does it.  Then, he starts to cry if I don't get him out of the crib and feed him right away.  As soon as the bottle is in his mouth, though, he is once again a happy baby.

He is also getting into a bit of a routine.  He sleeps through the night, eats, plays for a bit, takes a half hour nap, wakes, eats again, plays for a couple hours, takes another short nap, wakes, and eats again.  The rest of the day varies a bit, but we are working our way into a schedule.  I love how much he is adapting and changing with each day.

I love being a mommy!

Happy Anniversary!

Today Matt & I have been married for 8 years!  It also marks the first day we officially started "trying" to start a family.  Those first few months don't really count as there was no way I was going to get pregnant when I wasn't cycling one bit.  I started taking metformin 6 months later in hopes of it helping me ovulate.  No such luck with it, either.  Six months later we added clomid.  We spent 6 months trying to make clomid work, but all it did was make me sick.  Then it was on to the fertility specialist.  It was another year and a half of trying injectible medications with IUIs.  I ovulated and even got pregnant 3 times, but all of them failed quickly.

IVF came next.  It was a success until we lost the twins at 5 months along.  That was only a month before our 4th anniversary.  We spent the next 3 anniversaries just the two of us with little hope of adding to our family.

Last year I had given up hope on ever getting pregnant again.  Around our anniversary I decided that I was up for one more shot.  I had spent months working on myself...I lost weight, I decided to start working out with a trainer, I started to see a counselor.  I was feeling so much better.  So, we would give it one more go...

This year we went to our annual anniversary dinner at La Fondue as a threesome.  Colin was wonderful.  Even though we went during the "witching hour" where he has been horribly fussy, he stayed rather calm and even napped on and off.  He barely made a peep through our whole 2 hour dinner.  Compared to the little 2-year-old boy sitting next to us, Colin was an angel.

Next year we might not be so lucky with Colin's temperament, but we are still the luckiest people in the world to be his parents.

Today's revelation:  Propping up Colin's bottle so the he "feeds" himself makes it easy for me to make my own lunch and eat while he does. :)

And Week 2 begins...

We are already on to week 2 as a SAHM.  Today went pretty well.  Colin and I are both adjusting.  Squiggle is still depressed, but I think he is also happy that he isn't home alone all day. 

Today was a simple day.  We didn't drive anywhere and we just kinda hung out and did stuff around the house.  I actually took a nap at the same time as the Little Man, which worked out well for me.  Although, he did wake me up by crying rather loudly.  Makes me sad because I was only about 10 feet away from him. 

Our big outing for the day turned out to be a walk to the mailbox by the grocery store.  The mail carriers comes by our house pretty early (before 10am) and I miss putting things out quite often.  Today, I needed for Matt to sign some papers for Colin's 529 and he did that when he came home for lunch (yay!).  So, after our post-lunch nap, the three of us got together and walked down the street.  I have to say that walking a baby stroller and an excited pug is no easy task.  The stroller is large enough that I cannot see the dog if he walks in front of it and of course that is where he wants to be.  I'm not sure how many times I bumped his butt with the wheels.  Ah, well...we all made it to the mailbox and home without any real damage.  Little Man probably doesn't remember any of it because he napped the whole time.

I did find that Little Man only poops when Daddy goes to work.  Daddy didn't work yesterday and there were no poopy diapers.  Today, we had many.  So many that Little Man's butt is looking a little raw.  Poor guy...I don't know what to do for him.  We keep telling him to slow down on the pooping (at least when Mommy is the only one home), but he isn't listening.

Overall, we are improving and starting to have a good time together.  Little Man is getting close to smiling, so we play a lot and I try to get a smile out of him.  Nana will be here in a couple of days, so those days are going to be lots of fun!

Almost a full night!

Last night around 9pm, Colin got his last feeding and then was swaddle up in the Miracle Blanket and put to bed.  I expected him to get up at least twice during the night, so I went through the process of preparing a few bottles and putting them in the fridge so when the time came all I needed to do was heat them up a bit.  I finally put my head down to rest at 10:30pm expecting to be up in another hour and a half or so.

When I woke around 3am to no baby cries, I wondered what what going on.  I checked the monitor and he was still asleep...at least I hoped so.  My mind started racing a bit and wondering if he was okay.  I said a couple prayers and tried to go back to sleep while still watching the monitor to see if he would move.  Within the hour I heard a few grunts, so I knew he was okay.  But why wasn't he crying to eat or for a diaper change?

Finally at 4am I couldn't stand it anymore and decided to get up and change him.  I first went to the kitchen to warm a bottle because I knew waking him would then require a feeding.  So, I sleepily walked back to his room with the bottle in hand and hoping all was okay.  When I looked in his crib and put my hand on his chest, I could feel his steady breathing and then he started his cute little noises.  I checked his back and found a little wetness, so I decided I would change him (I hate for him to have a wet bum).  It probably wasn't necessary, but I needed to make sure he was fine.  By the time I was done with the change (which included a wardrobe change), he was awake and ready to eat.

After the diaper change, I wanted even more baby bonding time, so I even did a little breatfeeding.  Okay, so it really isn't much of the "feeding" part, but I did put him to breast.  he gets something out of it and we get to bond. :)  I had the bottle ready so as soon as he was finished bonding, he got plenty to eat.

By 4:30am I was ready to go back to bed, but Little Man was still awake.  I held him for a while and then put him back in his crib.  I went back to bed and watched him in his crib for a bit while he watched his mobile.  We finally both went back to sleep and didn't get up again until 7am.  I felt more refreshed than I had in a while.

I'm hoping for a repeat tonight minus the worried mommy running in to change him because she wants to make sure he is breathing.

Success on Day 3!

Hungry Baby

After yesterday's not so great day, I decided to get up with a positive attitude and have a good day with Colin.  So what if I started in the middle of the night asking Matt to take the early shift because I was just too tired?  I think it worked for me because I happily got up at 6:45 to change and feed the little man.  It was a good start for me, but Matt was running a little late.

The day went like this:

6:45am Feeding/change

7:15-9:00am awake time with Mommy...playing on activity gym and doing things around the house

9:00am  Mommy needs a shower.  Colin hangs in the bathroom in his bouncy seat.

9:00-10:00am sleepy time in bouncy seat while Mommy dresses & cleans up a few things.

10:00am Feeding time again plus FaceTime with Uncle Ross!

10:30am A little milk drunk

11:00am-12:45pm Mommy decides to go run errands...Baby sleeps in his carseat the whole time!

1pm Another munching time

1:30-3:30pm awake time.  Colin goes for a ride in the Moby wrap with Mommy while she does some laundry.  He looked around at everything (mostly Mommy, but he looked up higher, too...the sun was bright!). 

3:30pm Mommy's sleepy, but Colin is awake.  Mommy cuddles with Colin on the couch and dozes.

4:00pm Daddy calls and is on his way home!  

4:30pm Daddy's home!

Overall, the day went well.  Colin started to get a little fussy around the time that Daddy got home, but nothing too terrible. He just didn't seem to want to go to sleep.  So, after his last evening feed (8pm), Colin got a bath!  He doesn't like the naked and cold part, but he really likes sitting in the warm water.  He is very calm during the bath, but when he's out of the water, he is very unhappy.  He cried for quite a while after he was dressed even.  We swaddled him up in a Swaddlebee and that took a little while for him to adjust to.  Matt literally skipped around the house to calm him down.  Finally around 9pm he was calm and started to get sleepy.

Tomorrow is another day and I am going to be positive about it again!  Plus, I'm having some other mommies over, so I get to socialize with adults!