Vivid Dreams

Really, the bad dreams need to stop. I would also like to sleep through the night. I'll live with the sleeping if only the dreams would be happy dreams instead.
Last night (this morning) I dreamed I was on a plane with some bratty kids and I was the one watching them for their parents. My high school friends Guy & Erika were also there. At the end of the flight it was like we had all just taken a vacation and had to pack up to leave. I couldn't get everything in my bags and had to leave behind my good China. Yes, all my dishes were somehow on the plane. I think we were in Vegas and I just kept wandering around looking for something, but I don't know what. I ran into my family (Dad) and then met up with the rest of the family. Turns out my sister-in-law wanted to take a pregnancy test in front of the whole family to see if she was pregnant. I started to flip out on the inside thinking her and my brother were nuts to tell the family that way. When the test came up positive, I was really upset. I had wanted to tell my family first, but felt she ruined it for me. I didn't want to tell the family then because I didn't want to spoil her news. Somehow I got really upset and started yelling at my brother for not talking to me about them trying and her being pregnant, etc. I proceeded to tell them all I was pregnant, too. My mom started to cry because she wants grandkids and was finally getting some. That is about the point where I woke up and was pretty upset about the dream.

I'm worried about telling people because I don't want bad vibes from people. I don't want them to worry too much (like my mom or Chris at work) and I don't want them to wish ill will on us (like I feel Xue would because I know she was mad I got married first and probably wanted kids first). I also really want to tell people because I want support. I feel like it is a catch-22 and I am damned if I do and damned if I don't. Maybe I should just wait until the baby is here and keep telling people I am just getting fat. Okay, so maybe that won't work.

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